Book two

Flora and dragons. Book two

Introduction

The first book told the story of the girl Flora, who was very attracted to the fiery energies in people. Flora admired, admired and fell in love until they became destructive and dangerous for her.

Flora learned to distinguish human manifestations from the beautiful creative fire that burned in her lovers. This fire could warm, but also burn, both its owner and others, so Flora sometimes had to escape from the owner and carrier of the dragon's fiery energy.

Over time, Flora discovered that she also has a very cute inner dragon, with whom she has been learning to interact properly all her life. Flora is a boring girl, very curious, striving for self-exploration and development, so her life could not be depressing and uninteresting. Let's follow her further adventurous and romantic adventures together, which promise to be very exciting.

Flora was tired of her love affairs in recent years, so she was in a proud freedom-loving solitude. But, frankly speaking, she wanted adventures, and it would probably be nice to get married, in the end. Thoughts about marriage wandered into the violent head, only one thing was unclear - "what kind of man can cope with someone like her?"

The level and scale of "Shiva" should be available to him, - said one experienced Vedic lady with many years of yoga practice.

Where do these Shivas live? - Flora thought. She decided that she herself needed to expand her inner scale, and then her Shiva would come. Deep down, she seemed to know and remember the taste of unconditional true love, so she decided not to exchange for less anymore.

It's better to be alone than with anyone, - Flora decided and started her work, - I will no longer stimulate and speed up the search process, let everything go its own way.

It was wise. And adventures and new acquaintances found her by themselves.

In Egypt

Flora decided to go to Egypt with a company of very interesting people, among whom were leading spiritual practitioners, psychologists, astrologers and artists.

Egypt has long attracted her attention with its nature, culture, history, found ancient artifacts, and Flora also hoped to find friends and like-minded people on this trip.

In their free time from bathing and traveling to temples, the participants of the trip held a variety of classes, and Flora decided to conduct the author's fairy-tale therapeutic process. She chose a fairy tale about love, of course. It was "The Little Mermaid" by Hans Christian Andersen, it combined very well and resonated with the internal state and scuba diving among colorful corals and huge fish.

This fairy tale is deeply philosophical, its meaning is deeper than the story of unrequited love. The little mermaid wanted to find an eternal soul, which she was deprived of, for this she agreed to make great sacrifices, to experience a lot of pain and disappointment. This fairy tale has a good ending, because in the end the Little Mermaid managed to get and fulfill her plan, she became a spirit of air, which has the opportunity and potential to find an immortal soul. Andersen needs to be carefully read and analyzed, he is a very deep researcher and mystic. The fairy-tale therapeutic process on "The Little Mermaid" took place.

The girls in the group began to talk about their unrequited feelings, and came to the conclusion that love does not have to be mutual and happy. This is a Divine feeling given for something more than meeting human needs.

After a heated discussion, the participants of the process went to their rooms, and Flora was pleased with the work done and walked for a long time along the seashore alone.

Maybe she also incarnated in this life to find an eternal soul, she had a lot of complex and unrequited love experience.

- Well, that's good! Victor Frankl writes in his book that when you understand "why", you can withstand any "how". What other Dragon would I fall in love with to break my heart beautifully? I'm ready for a lot for the immortality of the soul," Flora thought.

Well, and, of course, the Dragon overheard...

The author is ironic here and believes that Flora needs to summarize the experience of her loves and understand what the main dragon archetype looks like, for which she is looking for and chasing. What is she missing? Protection, warmth, power, control or something else... Come on, look for it, Flora, and we'll watch.

Theodore

Flora had a friend who was ten years older than her. His name was Theodore, and, of course, he was a dragon.

Theodore was smart and well educated, it was interesting to communicate with him, discuss everything in the world, make ironic and fool around. And also, importantly, he didn't need Flora's money, he knew how to build a business and made good money. Unaccustomed to this, Flora sometimes felt uncomfortable at the moment when Theodore paid the bills in the restaurant, theater tickets, gave her gifts. It was necessary to learn to calmly accept these gifts, without trying to fight for the payment of bills and without feeling obliged to Theodore for it.

Flora felt calm and confident with him, although sometimes she saw his fiery flashes. It happened, for example, when she was driving with him in the car, and Theodore cursed angrily at the racers, the violators of the rules. Sometimes it was too emotional and hot, from Flora's point of view.

Pretty soon after getting acquainted, Theodore said that he wanted to introduce Flora to his mother.

Erika Leonidovna

Theodore lived with his mother, who adored him. She worked as a doctor for a long time and had a powerful character and a sharp tongue, the sharpness of which she always diligently maintained and honed on the people around her. She was able to get into the weak vulnerable point of the interlocutor very well and accurately. She was about seventy years old, and Flora was fit to be a granddaughter.

Erika Leonidovna liked the flora, but the dragon temperament could not but show itself in all its glory. Where to put it? She really needed it for work and protection against the claims of customers, who sometimes needed to exercise their brains so that they would be properly treated and follow medical instructions. Of course, she understood that she had already scared many of Theodore's brides with her domineering character, and she needed to be softer and more tolerant of women. Erika Leonidovna tried very hard not to say too much at the first meeting with Flora, but she could not hide her evaluative views on the new acquaintance, potential bride of her son.

Flora was hypersensitive, so even thoughts were difficult to hide from her emotional barometer. She also wanted to like her, but she was a little scared when she saw such a powerful dragon. Flora respected doctors, but she was also awared for some reason that was not quite clear.

Erika Leonidovna was strict and meticulously passionate about sanitation, she disinfected plumbing several times a day, and hoped that Flora would be ready to support her desire for cleanliness and order. When she realized that Flora could rather be classified as a "bohemian", who prefers to paint a picture with oil than to cook, wash and clean, she was disappointed with her son's choice, but deep down she hoped that she would be able to re-educate Flora. "And they didn't redo those," she thought.

The acquaintance took place. Theodore loved and respected his mother, believed that there was no one on Earth that was kinder and more beautiful than her. He had no idea that his mother was so kind only to him, and the brides evaluate on a scale - "how well she can serve my son". Flora's value in this regard was questioned, as she was not going, apparently, to completely put her life on the altar of the family and go to the service and submission of the household.

Theodore introduced Flora as his bride, which surprised Erica Leonidovna a little. There has been no official offer from him yet. Maybe he was afraid of rejection? History is silent.

By this time, Flora really wanted to move out of the hostel where she had lived for the last year and a half. She couldn't live with her mother, Amalia Felixovna, and the dormitory had its own peculiarities and disadvantages. Flora accepted the offer to move to Teodore's apartment, where his mother lived, due to the current life circumstances.

I must say that she liked Theodore very much, he was caring and, it seems, loved Flora. After half a year of acquaintance, she agreed to his proposal and married him. Next, I'll tell you about Flora's life in his house.

Flora's life is changing

Flora began to live the life of a married woman. However, she sometimes felt that she lived in a harem, as a second wife. Flora drove away this obsessive feeling with all her might, but Erika Leonidovna invaded all conversations, made decisions for her, indicated how to behave and love her son correctly. Flora was getting very uncomfortable.

Theodore loved his mother and told Flora that he needed to listen to her advice, since she had a lot of experience.

Flora tried to learn how to cook, listened to the same stories, edifications several times, washed, cleaned and washed. There was no end to maintaining order and cooking, Erika Leonidovna was more and more subordinated Flora to her influence, invading personal spheres, violating all boundaries. Relationships with Theodore moved into the background of Flora and took much less attention than communication with his mother. She wrote a short text on this topic.

About tactlessness

The tactlessness of close people is perceived acutely, because the relationship is long-term, and you don't want to quarrel with them. They can know about vulnerable places and manipulate your reactions to their words and get offended. They may not recognize borders for the reason that they know you, they consider obliged to dedicate you to intentions, plans and even secrets. It's very difficult to resist this politely, because there may be...
Flame grows and develops

Flamen was very active and mobile. It seemed to Flora that she had eyes on her back, it was so necessary to closely monitor Flamen and respond quickly to his impulses. Flamen's inner fire dragon did not give rest to anyone, Erica Leonidovna quieted down, because she was afraid that a violent child could be entrusted to her. And to cope with it, lightning-fast reactivity was needed, and no advice worked. Flamen jumped, ran, was interested in everything, experimented, put small Lego parts in his nose, tasted everything that came to hand.

When the family went to Egypt, Plamen staged fireworks of various incidents, that Flora was out of adrenaline, and she was dizzy. For example, while the parents were registering at the reception, Flamen ran away and dived into the pool right in his clothes. It was pointless to scold him, Plamen simply could not control his inner fire.

I'll probably put the author's spoiler in this text. He learned to control his impulses only by the age of fourteen, before that he had to constantly play football, tennis, hockey with him, go to the pool with him, entertain and occupy him, leaving him practically no free time, since he was able to find an extreme adventure even in fifteen minutes.

A very strong impression was left by a bright moment when Flora caught Flamen a second before he was going to go off the cliff during mountain trekking. Flora hardly calmed down and let go of this situation, thanking the Universe for having a good grip and reactivity.

And you, parents, when the child was called Plamen, what were you thinking about? - her psychologist friend once asked Flora.

Yes, you should have called it Tikhon," our heroine joked in response.

For a long time, Flora was not at all up to her own development, but one day she realized that she had deviated from her course again, completely giving her life to the child. It was necessary to restore our internal independence and continue to develop our talents.

Flora insisted that Plamen needs a nanny who comes at least twice a week, because she needs free, personal time.

Erika Leonidovna objected, but Flora threatened that then Flame would be left with her, and her mother-in-law had to accept it.

Flora visits a watercolor studio

Flora signed up for a painting studio in the style of wet watercolor. She was led by a real, active fairy, Rosita Venediktovna, a famous artist who brought up many students.

She was both strict and authoritarian, as well as romantic, playful and incredibly cheerful. Looking at the drawings that Flora brought to the studio for the first lesson, Rosita Venediktovna made her verdict: "It's not good for anything, there's no atmosphere here." Flora, hardened by her mother-in-law's grades, was not offended at all and got down to business, began to learn to draw pictures under the guidance of a real flower fairy-watercolorist.

The studio was visited by many people, Rosita Venediktovna created a wonderful creative atmosphere and was able to attract interesting personalities-creators.

At first she criticized Flora's works, then she realized that they were internally very similar to her, equally aimed at revealing the secrets of creation. Rosita Venediktovna really noticed her new student.

Just don't be too good, leave the understatement," she instructed Flora.

Watercolor is a mystery hidden in the fog, it awakens the imagination, leaves room for fantasy. With its help, you can express your tenderness and admiration for the beauty of nature.

- I will draw flowers until I become a flower myself, - Flora decided.

She studied quickly and soon began to participate in exhibitions, joined the community of watercolorists.

Not everyone respected her classes at home.

Flowers again. Maybe you'll draw something else for a change," the household asked Flora.

Erika Leonidovna constantly reminded her that it was just a hobby, so you shouldn't devote so much time to it.

Whatever you call it, it's still very important, and I'll draw as much as I think it's necessary," Flora replied.

When she was drawing, she often sang or listened to music. Once her mother Amalia Felixovna heard it and said the following words to the growing Plamen.

Don't let her sing! It's not given to her!

It is completely unclear why it was necessary to tell the child this, Flora remained completely puzzled about these words, but nevertheless continued to sing.

Her paintings have been said more than once in front of the children that it was some kind of nonsense. In general, Flora was a good subject, about whom you could sharpen your teeth, make sparkling jokes, sitting in the kitchen with Erika Leonidovna. On common ground to discuss the behavior of the stupid Flora, her mother and mother-in-law quickly found a common language and topics for conversation.

Flora was very happy that she had a real creative mother in the person of Rosita Ionovna, who helped her guide, tame and create her reality with the help of inner fire, which was a lot.

Epilogue. About cosmic eggs.

The author ends the story about the inner development of a woman through many obstacles, disappointments, the need to recover from traumatic events. The heroine learns to search and find, love and forgive, analyze and explore this life and herself.

Flora realized that you can give birth to Universes in different ways, so she needed to find among the smart, looking people who could inspire her. It's good that they appeared in her life.

Flora listened to the conversations of smart and talented people about space, premieres of films and performances, the development of technologies. She was very interested, and it seemed that now she would learn the answers to her most important questions that she has been asking since birth. Maybe we can finally find out about the mystery of Death? She really liked her state of intrigue and pleasure from contemplating really smart and educated people.

Flora was interested in being silent and absorbing the energies of these people, she breathed intelligent air. It was as if the germs of space eggs were planted in her head, which over time would develop into projects, meetings, adventures, travels accompanied by romance. In her imagination, the canvases of fates, woven from mysterious threads, unfolded. She was able to bear and grow these cosmic eggs, as she was a suitable warm maternal environment for them...

This story goes on because the development and acquisition of new experience is endless. The author will write a sequel, as the topic of interaction with internal fire turned out to be relevant for many. The name "dragon bearers" was born as a metaphor for inner fire. This element should be handled very consciously, so that it warms, and not burns and traumatizes, both those around and the carrier of this energy.

The book was written in Bulgaria, at a transitional moment, when it is necessary to choose a path once again. How not to become indifferent, how to live your own life, not someone else's, how not to let your consciousness be processed and subjugated? There are a lot of tasks and questions. I want people to become themselves, without distortions and other people's influences, to gain their own unique experience without internal substitutions. The author believes that it is achievable...